Tuesday, October 11, 2005


Despite (or perhaps due to?) eating pumpkin pie for breakfast, I'm having a really weepy, melancholy day. The feeling had been building up all weekend and now it's right on the surface. Missed chances, roads not taken - all the stuff that can make you miserable if think about it for too long. But I find trying to supress it doesn't work for me. I need to let it all out and then I feel better again.

Last week I bought James Blunt's new CD Back to Bedlam and it's jut perfect for wallowing in self pity while sniffling into a pile of kleenex.

I like this song the best:


Beautiful dawn - lights up the shore for me.
There is nothing else in the world,
I'd rather wake up and see with you.
Beautiful dawn - I'm just chasing time again.
Thought I would die a lonely man, in endless night.
But now I'm high; running wild among the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Beautiful dawn - melts with the stars again.
Do you remember the day when my journey began?
Will you remember the end of time?
Beautiful dawn - You're just blowing my mind again.
Thought I was born to endless night, until you shine.
High; running wild among the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Will you be my shoulder when I'm grey and older?
Promise me tomorrow starts with you.
Getting high; running wild among the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.


No, I'm not going to go out and get high now, in case you were wondering.


At October 11, 2005 1:41 p.m., Blogger Homer said...

Dr Homer prescribes a trip across the Atlantic, darling!

I am sooo missing BC. This part of England sucks. Boring, flat, no decent walks, criss-crossed by motorways. I could easily snivel into a Kleenex myself, but I've distracted myself by sterilising my spice jars. I know how to have fun!

James Blunt rocks. My personal fave is Goodbye My Lover, the only song that's ever made me cry.

At October 11, 2005 2:44 p.m., Blogger christina said...

Homer! You just described where I live.

The trip over the Atlantic has to wait until next summer, I'm afraid.

Hmmm,I'm eyeing my spice jars now and wondering just how long they could keep me busy. :-)

At October 11, 2005 3:23 p.m., Blogger Ms Mac said...

Awww, Darl! Is it homesickness? Coz I know that sucks ass!

At October 11, 2005 3:30 p.m., Blogger christina said...

ms mac - Partly homesickness, yes. It does indeed suck ass (I don't believe I've ever written that expression before, but I'm liking it!:-) )

At October 11, 2005 8:56 p.m., Blogger Calamity Tat said...

Ohh Girlfriend, Bad day? Had a bad one myself yesterday. Felt Ill, no car, and a note in Pinks school book almost reduced me to tears, oh and I missed Trac.... Sometimes it's hard for us expats when we feel so down and are so far from home... Hope tomorrow is better :-)
I'm going to give that PP a go soon...

At October 11, 2005 11:31 p.m., Blogger J said...

I couldn't imagine living here if I didn't have a full time job. I'd drive myself batty. Is there any chance of you getting more work? That might help.

At October 12, 2005 1:07 a.m., Blogger Crystal said...

I feel a little down too right now, partly it's a weather thing because the sun hasn't shown its face these last few days, but mostly I feel antsy because I want to be more of an activist for civil rights and the oppressed. A retired school teacher was brutally beaten in New Orleans over the weekend, and it's a BIG deal here in the states, and police brutality is a major issue. And then there's the Guantanomo Bay situation, those guys left to rot for going on 5yrs. without even being charged for a crime of getting their day in court! Urggh, makes me so so angry! I want to start a grassroots campaign and write a bunch of letters to my Senators etc., but I just do not have the time right now. It's really hard to make a difference in the world, but I feel that I was born to be an activist so I've gotta live up to that.

At October 12, 2005 2:33 a.m., Blogger Cathy said...

Grey days are hard; hope you have a great day tomorrow. I would recommend K.D. Lang's new Songs from the 49th parallel; even for non Lang fans; check it out; amazing and wonderful for grey or yellow days.

At October 12, 2005 3:57 a.m., Blogger cmhl said...

girl, I have no advice, just commiserating... hope tomorrow is a better day...

At October 12, 2005 4:26 a.m., Blogger Elemmaciltur said...

Darnit! Am I the only one on this planet who finds James Blunt's voice annoying???? *dugs from projectiles from James Blunt's fans*

At October 12, 2005 7:35 a.m., Blogger Karen said...

Get better soon!
I hate days like that.

At October 12, 2005 8:24 a.m., Blogger christina said...

Thanks guys! :-)

Tat - poor you! sounds like you need some cheering up too.

J - You're hilarious (and I mean that in the nicest of ways). That was a totally typical male response. Not that that's a bad thing. :-) I can barely cope with all the stuff I have to do around here now, a job would only make it worse, believe me. Don't forget that your situation is completely different from mine.

Crystal - there's always time for activism. Go to it!

Cathy - thanks for the recommendation - I haven't listened to any K.D. Lang in a long time

Elemm- yeah, yeah, I've heard people say mean stuff about his voice too - comparing him to Leo Sayer (you're too young to know who he is, probably). But I can't help liking him. He's just sooo adorable! :-)

At October 12, 2005 10:54 a.m., Blogger Berlinbound said...

Thanks for the song lyrics ... and for your visit this morning ...

Joni Mitchells's "Blue" album is the one I have to avoid - As soon as I hear the first strains of the first song my eyes water and my heart aches ... Even though I love the record, I just can't listen to it anymore. I've really dated myself haven't I ...

At October 12, 2005 12:36 p.m., Blogger christina said...

Hi Richard! I know exactly what you mean. I have some CDs made for me by an old friend where just looking at the *cover* will set me off.

At October 12, 2005 2:50 p.m., Blogger Antipodeesse said...

Sweetie, have a good cry & you'll feel better afterwards! May I recommend watching old comedy videos: Monty Python, Blackadder, Eddie Izzard, Billy Conolly or whoever makes you laugh. I'll post you some of mine as a loan if you like. Send me your address by e-mail! Maybe we should start a vid/DVD library....


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